I am here again, wishing that I can at least get a vacation somewhere outside the country. I mean I already accepted the fact that I can’t, that we can’t due to financial constraint and besides my husband did not already made follow ups or maybe did not submit our petition for us to at least live where he resides, or at least have a vacation but there are times that I can’t help to think for us to get a chance, I just don’t know how or when.
I get envious with wives out there who were able to step up, whose family is intact at least. I am envious of those families who at least can get a vacation outside of the country or live outside the country. But they said that we don’t have the right to complain but thankful enough for what we have. Don’t get me wrong I am thankful for the blessings that GOD always bestowed on us, I am thankful that my husband never failed to support us, I am thankful that my kids are with me. It is just that sometimes, I asked why others can have it and I can’t.
One of my friends told me that she’d never lose hope for us, she knew that we can get there I hope it is easy as that. But I know we can’t, we never submitted anything to begin with so how can we? Most often than not, I just lift it all up to the LORD, if GOD want us to stay so be it, I know his plans is bigger than what I have. But I hope at least my youngest daughter have an option, I hope she will have the chance to explore, I hope her opportunity will get broad; I hope my husband will at least think of the possibilities for her. I hope we all have the resources to do all the things we needed to do.