I admit I am really not okay today, I didn’t even went out yesterday because I just wanted to sleep and sleep hoping I could forget all my depression in life. I was ready to go out when I asked my sister Merlyn to just fetch Mj to send her to Kumon. I was really not feeling okay, I am hurting deep inside and I am not sure if I can still bear this pain. I didn’t drive since I am worried if I can’t concentrate on my driving, I already know how to drive but I really need to have be more attentive while doing such. I know it is not only me who feels this kind of frustration and it just makes me feel fortunate somehow that somewhere out there, there are some people whose frustrations are more than of what I am feeling right now. I am still lucky, I guess. Anyway, I hope these feeling will go away very soon because I need to be more active, my kids need me everyday and so I need to be strong.