Christmas is fast approaching. And every time it comes I feel like to cry, I feel like I wanted to put all my pains and failures inside by crying. Through it I feel light and ready to struggle again, I feel so tired at times of course but what can I do? But even so, I will never give up, I will never surrender because I know I can make it, because my kids are with me. They are my strength and my life. Yet it is okay to cry that makes me stronger.